MEDITATION

this is what for
i am spending a majority of my time this year
till now

WINNING OVER OUR SELF
this is the greatest victory
all religious texts confirm this
uno JIHAD  is or two kinds
1. 'jihad e asgar' and 2. 'jihad e akbar'
the first one means small war that is of fight with weapons, shedding blood.
and the second one means the BIG  war that is of getting control over self
and no terrorist scoundrel is bothered to remember this. because they dont follow religion. they are just bothered about their drug mafia and weapons business. MENTAL MINDS.
and the innocent YES I SAID INNOCENT  people who think them heroes needed to be given counselling in some mental hospital because they are as innocent as any insane person.
thats why it is dangerous to become funda'MENTAL. Some try to put the hindu orgs like 'bajarang dal' and RSS in the same rack as the terrorists but show an example where these poor orgs have any link with drug mafia kind of things. I am no supporter of these orgs but ..... . 


see most often
most children complaint
and fight with the parents
"what have you done for us
or
what have you done to us
or
it is not fair what you have done to me
... . .. . ..like this
o.k
what they have done
THEY HAVE DONE
what are we doing to ourself
WHAT ARE WE DOING TO OURSELF
what are we doing of ourself
WHAT ARE WE DOING OF OUR SELF
and most
kids - ofcourse grown up
dont have an answer
they sstart chewing water
and thats fun
WE HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO BLAME THE PARENTS
but never mind to give a serious thought to the real problem
that is WE, OUR SELF.
GROW UP
grow up
GROW UP
this is what i say to myself most often

we are enough grown up to think of the flesh and pleasure
AND
to blame those poor beings
BUT
what about OUR SELF
"Apne khud ke liye kya kar rahe ho "
NO ANSWER

and when some one tries to titillate on the topic
of hatred and communalism
i just say to myself 'I dont want to fall in this pit'
"Apne ko ye khadde mein nahi girna "
RIGHT
tick it

and i dont believe in the term secularism
its a pure farce
there is no need for that words existence
its one useless word in the dictionary
because
IF HUMANISM EXISTS  there is no need for secularism

As the renowned scientist Louis Pasteur puts it
" Dont say me about your caste, creed, religion or beliefs Tell me what is your pain "
I believe it " DIL SE "
"VAISHNAVA JANATHO THENE KAHIYE JO PEED PARAAYI JAANE RE"
- a person who believes in god knows the pain of others

I just feel disgusting when some one calls me santhu
kya mera oopar thuktha hai kya
gussa aatha hai saala
Now i remember we had a boy named
thukaram in intermediate
asking ram to thuk 
is it like that i used to feel
as such i never joined anyone to laugh at him

kondaru 'anna' 'mama' ani pilichevaaru
maata marchi peru petti pilisthe
lanja koduka em anukontunnav ani thittina moments koodaa unnaai
ayithe oka moment lo gnanodayam ayyindi
are vaadu emaina cheduga maatlaadaada
he was just reminding my beautiful name
S. A . N . T. H . O . S . H
s    a    n    t    h    o    s   h
paapam alaa thittadam thappu kadaa
and moreover he was just trying to be my friend
mana vaipu evaraina vasthunte manaki opposite lo vastunnaaru anukovaddu
manatho add avvadaaniki vasthunnaaru anukonte !
see it makes a lot of difference
" Andaru manchi vaalle Andaru manavaalle
anukoni okasaari chuttoo choosthe
prapancham chaala baaganipistundi "
Idi monna SAI BABA  temple lo aarti ayipoina tharuvaatha establish ayina feeling.

from the time we are born
sab log apne ko banaane ka kosish karthe hai
people try to make us something
what they feel good
mom likes us to be like her, dad feels we to behave like him
and so and so
O.K
accepted that GENES  play a role
not only in giving  physical resemblances but also in mental and spiritual resemblance with ones parents
but beyond this there is always an effort to make us
"banaane ka"
are kya ban ne ka
apne ko apun ich rahne ka
nothing else
ACCEPTED THAT ONE BE WILL LIKE THEIR PARENTS IN MANY WAYS

just as we format a computer hard disk
 I AM FORMATTING MY BRAIN
abhi bheje mein o ich rahega jo really important
aur zaroori hai

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EK SRIMATHI KA
KALAVATHI KA
SEVA KARE JO PATHI KA
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