satan returns and GETS DEFEATED

I went to chennai for a meeting
i only wonder why people say all such things
you have good physique - you could be a police officer
you have good voice - you could have become singer
you have good mannerisms - why you did not try in films
you are like this, like that bla bla
why no one says REMAIN A GOOD HUMAN BEING
cant we remain as good human beings
I was being pushed on all sides
It is a training session
I was pushed because i was fast and smarter
During the whole session
one thing i said to myself
this job is not for me
I MUST DO SOME THING BETTER
more than subject they are inclined to teach
what they call discipline ... that is SUBORDINATION
attitude means - ABILITY to bow your head
so low sometimes that the person does not know he is already in his grave
they say i dont have RIGHT ATTITUDE
definitely, i must not have
may be this job demands that kind of attitude
and it does not suit me
but you know where i stand
i feel i am confused
in this kind of situations
i remember the story of monkey
not the one sent by you
but it was told by one of my managers
HOW THEY TRAP MONKEYS
and how the monkey becomes slave for a life time.
hope you remember
HOW THE CIRCUS ELEPHANTS ARE CHAINED
everything is an habit
and HABITS DIE HARD
see when mr. babu was the cm we used to see a photo of LORD VENKATESWARA in his chamber. .. .we were habituated to see it
and when that GOD is replaced by JESUS then atleast people who are true to their heart, like me, are unable to adjust
as such i have no complaints about JESUS
when people (not me) can accept the newer versions of god like SATYA SAI, KALKI BHAGWAN, AAJKI BHAGWAN etc., then we must not have any problem with JESUS
these people (gods) do not even measure a dust particle under the feet of JESUS
but it is a matter of HABIT
religion is an habit
RELIGION IS THE OPIUM OF THE MASSES - sometimes seems the right quote.
who is not communal
YS is communal, chandrababu is communal .....because everyone practices his religion.
BUT ALL WANT TO FIGHT COMMUNALISM
could any hindu or muslim imagine to head a state of christian majority
YES, I AM COMMUNAL
because i am unable to understand that christianity and christ are not different.
BUT I LOVE HUMANITY
i understand pain
gods may be different
BUT PAIN IS THE SAME
and i am trying to make myself HUMAN BEING
rather than being a religious person
JUST HUMAN BEING nothing more or nothing less
APNEKO YE POLLUTION ME NAI GIRNEKA
i dont want to be polluted by this religious pollution
LET ME BE HUMAN BEING
JUST HUMAN

satan returns and DEFEATED

one thing that science says is
like all other animals, human being also is an animal
if me or any one requires training then
the training of being of human being is the most important
and that is the purpose of religion
RELIGION IS A TRAINING PROG., to CONVERT US from human ANIMALS to human BEINGS.,
If we are well trained as human BEINGS we do not require any other training
and
LET ME TAKE PRIDE
" I AM TRAINED WELL TO BE HUMAN BEING "

BY the end of the training prog.,
i was confused, strained, depressed
because they want me to behave like a medical rep.,
and anytime in life i remember, believe in only one thing
TO BEHAVE LIKE HUMAN BEING
they liked me for my human qualities but they want ot make me something else
that i was not becoming
they want to find some faults with me
because
the company does not need human beings
it needs a servant
and my service is already pledged with god
KARMASYEKAM THASYA DEVASYA SEVA
and i cant pretend
because i feel happy being recognised as a GOOD HUMAN BEING
rather than as a police, singer or something else
ALL GREATNESS IS OF GOD
i am an humble being
and only that is the truth
and people in the training talk of all things like
goal, achievement, aim, target etc., etc.,
and miss the vital thing MAN IS CREATED BY GOD
and answerable to god
no one else
What we require is integrity, character,
and above all MAHA NYASAM
to be immersed in the creation of the GOD

in all this pollution
called training
i was disturbed . . . .
i crushed the satan
when i have given up the smoke and booze
few months ago
but the shaitan invents newer ways
when it cant influence me directly
it comes indirectly
and here goes my revelations

O satan by all your wicked efforts yor are only pushing me to get closer to MY GOD - the real care taker.
The satan can never get me direct so, it is coming through my people . . . . the people around me.
All this happened when i was smoking yesterday
actually this is the effect of the so called training prog
then i was disturbed and the past four days were dirty with smoke and booze
wonder how people habituate to them
but
yesterday was a good day for me
i went to a tea stall and with my friend started smoking
and i happened to see a few elderly people
who saw at me in such way, that i felt something like this:

" The eyes that look at me are caring. ..
without a word uttered . .. .
they were speaking with GREAT INTENSITY ..
the eyes of experience .. .
the eyes that have seen many a bad things .. .
asking me, blessing me, pleading me,
cajoling me, convincing me
DONT SMOKE
DEAR
DONT SMOKE
from where
i was told
hatred comes
WERE FLOWING WITH ABUNDANT STREAMS,
FLOWS, FALLS OF AFFECTION
CARE AND HONESTY
as much dear, i am to you
the dearest more, u r 2 me
O ELDERLY..
Let me by heart
DIL SE
say a SORRY
a real SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
I will not do it again
No smoke, No booze

and satan
Let me tell u the more u want to pull me
the more strong i am with my lord

The father can excuse any number of times
but
the mistake of the older
becomes an excuse for the younger
to continue doing wrong

the question is whether god is male/ female
The TRUTH
IS DIVINITY
does not require organs to eat, piss, shit

It is not because of population explosion
there is shortage of food
It is because of greed people suffer
C, how much food still goes into the drain

Remove "food" from business items.
Let all food be state property
FOOD IS THE PROPERTY OF ALL HUMANITY
then no one dies of hunger
God supplies more than enough
It is the satanic greed that hides & DOES BUSINESS


HEAVEN, HELL and HAIR STYLE

After changing my hairstyle and sticking to meditation
i was gradually experiencing AUM. emanating from the BRAHMA RANDHRAM
the first A starts at the navel
U sounds at the heart
M at the adams apple area
and the fourth SILENT SYLLABLE
touches at the BRAHMA RANDHRAM
and i was experiencing DIVINE PLEASURE
i dont know if it were HEAVEN
but i was visualising a beautiful world when i closed my eyes
meditatively
for a few seconds
that world HEAVEN
pleasant bright
better than the morning sky before sunrise
with ligh pink, blue
a very typical white, pale yellow
like the light from the FIRE OF YAJNA
beautiful fire
whatever people present at a distant site were
very definitely in a mood of joy, pleasure
fully relaxed and least bothered of any thing else
this was MY FRESH MIND

and after this training session
and after this four dirty days
when i tried to see the heaven
i was unable to keep my eyes closed
i was seeing HELL
with fire again everywhere
but this fire was different
and was completely different to the pleasantness
treacherously frightening, vulgar fire
wicked fire
With all black, brown, fire
streams of fire, waves of fire,
fire like that of the greatest water falls
being replaced with fire instead of water
people getting roasted like chicken in tandoor
words to explain that terror are not yet invented
but i experienced the hell
where i may go
if i continue these sinful habits

and my hair style
It looks better only to pleasant faces
it does not give any chance to hideousness
If my heart is pure then it will reflect on the face
however great actor cannot control it

and
AMRUTHAM
thanks
thanks
thanks
thanks
this is not enough
because last summer i was afraid of a cup of tea
and this summer in the same heat
i am able to smoke, drink
my health
or say gods attachment with me had improved a lot
yes
ofcourse i was dead
if i was not hooked to you
and now when i feel like a cheetah
when i run fast in the ground
i feel like THANK YOU
... and it is god who destined me towards you

BLASPHEMY
search in wikipedia "lajjagauri"
that is god/dess
and when i visit new places
i find some or the other kind of forms which
until i am told
i do not know
are gods
Take a paper and pen
sit in front of a mirror
try to draw the picture of yourself
can you do it
The best of artists also cant draw anything closer to life
then how can god be created.
Recently i visited MAHABALIPURAM
a world heritage site
i saw some stone carvings there
i only understood that instead of creating seperate busts for each pose
the sculptors preferred to put four or six hands to the same bust
so that different poses could be understood
but the greatest all time famous blasphmist RAJA RAVI VERMA
created gods and their photos to be printed
and all fools of the world falling on to those gods
POOR GODS
because i am fed of so many god pictures in my home
I ONLY BELIEVE ONE THING
" PRANAVAM " " maha beeja aksharam "
the only sound of communicating with GOD
AUM* - we need to experience the fourth syllable also
SILENCE
" EK OMKAR, KAR NIRAKAAR "

And by the time we reached the sea beach
it was already dark
and the waves were ferocious
and at night when the rushes are all out
hardly there were 5 or 6 people in the beach
and in seclusion at the beach, to the sound of waves
and the breezing wind
sometimes it increases the heartbeat
i cant say it fear
but you feel it more, when the waves seem to pull you alongwith them
and i only wondered
how it would be to be alone inside the sea at that time
I NEED TO MAKE MY GUTS
and necessity is the mother of invention
WHEN WE GET A SITUATION, WE LEARN TO FACE IT.
never allow
anything negative feeling to repeat
whether it is shame, fear, sorrow, or something else

AND
here is a thought out of context
"an old spouse is like a vintage car
sirf dikhaane ke siva driving ka kaam nahi aatha"

people are diverse
so diversities exist
and mankind needs LEADERS
to bring about UNITY

and i have many more things to put in here
but let me stop
by putting the greatest thing

I LOVE YOU
AMRUTHAM