presently on my table
again by DAN BROWN
now he is not attacking the church.
whether you remember
or not
When in school
the history books taught
that
though the muslims invaded from foreign lands
they mixed with the locals and made india their home
whereas
the british (christians) were only interested in exploitation
they never belonged to india
and
once we learn
it is established some where in our consciousness
and hence, i still feel
christianity is foreign
but
the truth is
christianity came to india in A.D 52
through saint thomas
SAINT THOMAS one of the twelve apostles of jesus CHRIST(abhishiktudu = immersed)
and now
childrens day on NEHRU birthday
what did he do so much for the millions of children of the nation
but it is a plot
a treachery
a propaganda
an agenda
to mesmerise, hypnotise
the future voters to be congress loyals
slaves/ spoons of his however stupid family (khandaan)
donga lanja koduku
the stupid responsible for
kashmir problem, terrorism in india
NEHRU
search and research never ends
because new problems require may be the same old problems recurring
hence, SEARCH
that is to find what is existing but lost.
and everyone is mad after something
and this is my madness
searching the TRUTH
and when i understand it
i cannot express the kind of happiness i feel
"aa samayaniki, adi mana okkarike sontham "
yath karoshi, yada snaasi, yajju hoshi dada siyath
yath thapasyasi kaunteya tath kurushva madarpanam
Geetha 9.27
this means "SUBMIT TO GOD "
what i explained in my earlier post.
this is what it is
and
mana sangathi
this is what is the real issue
somewhere i heard that
consciousness exists in different forms as:
sub consciousness, consciousness, unconsciousness, super consciousness.
the kind of mind i possess after the arthi at the saibaba temple is super consciousness
and the that is the state i get after what they call "GIBBERISH MEDITATION"
knowing too much is also a trouble.
Degree if application is more important than the amount of knowledge
When you dont know, then
you are free.
knowledge makes you dependable from being independant
and the ultimate knowledge is ....KNOW THYSELF
not the whole world
for saying the above two words
poor SOCRATES was killed.
you are always in my subconsciousness world
that is whatever i think, i do, want to do,
i feel, i must tell you
and hence, this SILSILA.
once two people become a family
the woman never hears
there starts the problems
so, now you are even reading
this gives a kind of confidence
i need not have to explain anything in future
and
some more truth about me
"what girl you are
do you have any shame
is this the culture your parents taught you
you dont know
how to behave in public places
do you think, you are still a lil kid
dont you know how to sit
is this the way your people live
what is that pose
pulling the legs onto the chair and sitting
it is disgusting
you dont know what is decency
do you realise there is something called dignity
You dont know how to carry yourself
Are you not aware of your body
Which kind of family do you come from
I am fed up of convincing you"
This is the way i would give a class to my wife
and
i dont like argument
if i have done something
not right
i will definitely CONFESS
and i expect the same from others.
once i am convinced
i make my convictions
I DONT CHANGE
you know
when we were newly wed
I LOVE YOU
i used to say this to her hundreds of times a day
and
it is almost over 5 years from now
i never uttered such words for her
atleast once
although
we made that . . . .
although
i bought all that she wanted
although
she was happy with me
although
she said those words number of times and expected back
she never got
that
I LOVE YOU
that is how i am
I DO NOT CHANGE often
and that is some truth about santhosh
his arrogance
his mindset
his nature
etc., etc.,
and if you still feel
SANTHOSH is OK
I suggest, dont waste time.
TO TAKE A DECISION.
a pakka decision....
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